If your not familiar with Dan Span and his work, get that way! He has serious talent and your going to want to be able to say someday “I was listening to him before he was as big as Snoop Dogg!”. As not only a friend, but official number 1 fan, I know what im talking about here!
You can’t sing a song all about life and not include things about yourself. Neon Milk as an album uses the life lessons that the band members have learned and presented them to you to also hopefully take something from.
The group tells these stories but sometimes in generalities and sometimes using their passions to explain things that can translate into your likes and dislikes.
This track like most others also carries a lot of life lesson in it but is also has a lot of focus on the band and what their music is.
Let’s break it down!
When I’m on a beat I feel complete got lines to burn through
Waited all my life for this I guess that patience is a virtue
Doing what you love and enjoy, is more rewarding than just about anything else.
And people sleep on me like it’s past the mothafuckin’ curfew
Sort of meaning, why did people hold me back from being myself.
But I’m so sick and so fly I might as well have the bird flu
But word dude yo Earth I would never desert you
Had to take a little break to give birth to
More nouns and verbs a thousand words to earn proof
I deserve you take a breather I’ll be sure to
But for now I got the urge to rap my ass off And never stop ‘til I turn blue
Meaning that sometimes you just have to step away from it all. You give up for a while and regather your passion, your strength, your thoughts, and emotions. Ultimately you know that you also have not to give up or turn your back on everything else.
Do you believe in what we are Now that the stars look just like us Do you have love for who we are
Now that we’re up high and you’re watching
What we do
What we do
So your hearing what we have to say and our message. You supported us, and here it is. This is who we are and what we are trying to do, do you still like it and us?
This is what we do
Knock ya ass all the way to Timbukto
Now talking about them or himself a bit and going to do it with rap. With music and art, to make it enjoyable for you.
I’m stuck in a rut and lookin’ up
Realizing that I don’t have all the answers but that I also see that something needs to change.
But there ain’t nobody to look up to
No one can give me all those answers, though. While there’s lots of aid from the world ultimately one can only figure out what ones own self-needs.
I sucked at school in class acted like such a fool
I didn’t know what the motherfuck to do
Not doing well in school, growing up, in society, and the peers around you. Not fitting in or understanding and instead of getting help, or digging deeper, just turning it all into a joke.
So I dropped out and started stackin’ songs to the fuckin’ moon
Better make a quick escape time tick tickin’ away
Recap takin’ over better pick a date
To be outta town by ‘cause we flippin’
The game of life around and playin’ it a different way
Ain’t nobody else who gotta sicker brain
Sticks and stones bitch they just ricochet
Give up music yeah that’ll be the friggin day wish away
So now making a change to life. Instead of listening to others, listening to ourselves and doing what we want to do, our answers, our path.
Do You Ever does not have a big reveal from me. From what I have been able to discern on my own on this one, we have the honor nod to a typical love/girl song on an album. Going through the stages of finding and loosing love, only to be hopeful to find it again.
Part of life that is needed by most, and so definitely should have a place on any album that talks about life. Something I think we can all relate too, though, without me getting all wordsy about it.
So for this one I give you the lyrics and my intro summary, only.
Do you ever think about me
‘Cause I do think of you
Do you ever dream about me
‘Cause I do dream of you
I can still remember the moment I first saw ya
I ain’t one to gawk but think I felt my jaw drop
Hotter than august eyes like emeralds
If love is a battlefield then you must be the general
But what am I thinking you don’t know the things I been through
Plus I got a chica I’m already pretty into
But damn baby girl you got me caught up in ya undertow
I can’t even move but still I really gotta wonder though
‘Cause ya smoke more trees than a wildfire
Talkin’ ‘bout the universe and I ain’t even kinda tired
So much energy you got me feelin’ out of practice
The complete package you are what the fuck a catch is
But the sad fact is girl you the one that got away
Never found the time but trust me I did have a lot to say
But now it’s gotten way too late and I feel my brain
Do the loop like a fuckin’ hula hoop
Ever since you flew the coop and you moved
Things just ain’t been right homie
Oh that other girl she left I was happy to say bye only
That’s the bitch of it ‘cause now I’m all alone and I’m lonely
All these years later and you still the one on my mind homie
I never had a chick come along and rattle this
Cage that I’m in and you showed me the way out of it
But when you left my life sunk like battleships
Time to pick myself back up and I guess you were the catalyst
(Chorus) (Bridge 2x)
Oooh well life’s a surprise
No matter what we do
And in the darkness of night
I pray that the dawn brings you
You didn’t think we were done yet did you? It is, after all, a long album!
Change is no less deep than many of the songs on this album, but it is also less metaphor than some others and simpler to understand. The title “Change” very much says what this song is about.
It is also important to know where this song comes in terms of placement in the album. The last song they went “home”. I analyzed a bit of what that meant, and what that was about. Like life though that interpretation continues and we see some more meaning and how “home” translates into meaning in this song.
Then be sure, once I do the next song (or go listen to the album on your own!), to notice that the next song they leave home after deciding to make a large change. Much what this song is about.
Let’s analyze this bitch!
Shut so deep in this box Home is not where I thought
Revelations make their way in
Could I still read the signs
Has stillness turned me blind
Repetition is the villain
Heart says go
But my legs slow ‘cause
No matter where I go the sorrow loves to follow
Mind’s at edge
Losing sense ‘cause
Despite the highs there was no paradise in the end
The first verse is setting you up for change. It is the state you are in before you make a change in your life and perhaps the thoughts that go with it. This is where home is in this reference. That place where you typically tend to reside inside of yourself.
Doing the same thing day after day (the villain, stillness, repetition, villain, legs slow), you stop watching for opportunities or doorways that may open, but they never stop happening (revelations, signs, mind at the edge).
You thought you were at the end, at Paradise. You were home, in the place you were aiming for doing what you wanted to do. While you have moments of happy you are not satisfied nearly as often as you should be, given you got to where you wanted. It’s time to change, your heart knows it, but it is hard to begin making those changes (legs are slow!).
Change has appeared
To play its role
So take its hand or it’s taking your throat
Don’t fight the wave
Just feel its force
And take this new life before it takes yours
While the verses in this song are putting together a story for you, the chorus is an overall definition of change itself (as applied to the accompanying lyrics). Change has a role in the world. Much like the featured image of a leaf I used on this post, the leaf is a necessary change that not only takes place every year, but that also shows the world is healthy (or at least not dead yet).
Change sometimes must happen and fighting it will make things worse. If you are a surfer riding a wave, you can either ride with it, flow with it, while it may be hard and scary.. or WIPE OUT!
The Chorus is talking about making that kind of life change.
Hold so tight to my ways
But the smile never stays
Realizations turn the pages
As we go into the second verse we pick-up where we left off on the first. Only all thouse thoughts, doubts, society telling yu you are doing everything right, whatever it may be in your life. That has been going on for months, years, or even decades. Have been overlaid by a “relization” that a change must happen.
Could I change what’s within
Break the ground where I sit
I think this section is one asking one’s self, once you have come to the realization you must make the change, what do I change? Do I change my attitude, thoughts, and perceptions? Do I change something in the physical world?
Ventilation for the demons Lost and cold
New winds blow
But I fight for my life and don’t go where the waves flow
Bliss goes dead
Once again ‘cause
the only happy end is the one that you carry within
When you begin making a significant change in your life, it comes with a lot of emotion.
Those of first looking deeply into one’s self and deciding what you don’t like about yourself, and changing it. The searching of every aspect of your inner mind and questioning everything you have ever been told or taught to find your answers. As the start of a new way of life.
Carrying those discoveries into the world outside of the self. To take it to the extent to change how you live your life.
Those are wondrous and amazing things but boy, do they come with demons.
They come with constant self-doubt, worry, and terror.
They may come at the cost of alienating family or friends who are not willing to accept the personal changes you make. They come with the need to prove that you are right.. to yourself.
It is likely you may become a person that is harder on yourself than anyone else can ever be. That is because you have come to understand what you need and with that, you must also develop the self-discipline to make sure you keep yourself happy and still survive at the same time.
As your logical fights your emotions.. no, maybe they fight at first but as they learn to work together. You learn to cope with those demons. That coping can only come within.
When changes come
It’s like leaves blowin’ in the wind
‘Til these trees grow them in again
It’s like lines flowin’ out a pen never knowin’ how it ends Never knowin’ what’s around the bend louder and louder
Change once it starts moves quickly and not always under your control. You can change one thing and like a domino effect more happen. As a change is thrust upon you, such as the loss of a job, you may choose to seize that as another opportunity to change, say your career. This is due to the changes you have made to yourself.
You have learned how to be happier, you have learned you must change, you have started to change. Now it’s moving, and it’s flowing!
It’s not a hurricane, though! It’s like art, and you have some control. You’re happy, your hi on life. You walk around the house and find your smiling and stop realizing it.. as you never do that.
You don’t know what tomorrow is going to bring but you sure in the hell know your on the right track, blowing along like leaves on the winds. Solid in yourself, flowing with the world around you, altering it where you can, understanding you never know where it will end, but it just keeps getting better as your knowledge grows.
The crowd is shouting and I
Couldn’t help but notice this whole fuckin’ showbiz
Thing is kinda bogus it should be a bonus Doin’ what you love has gotta come first Money’s second so I gotta focus
A personal reference to the changes they are making and how these life lessons apply to themselves. At the same time though a lot is taking place in the last line I quoted there.
First that when you do what you love, I believe that it wouldn’t matter what that is, that you will most likely find that terms like “hobby,” “work,” and “job,” begin to have all new meanings.
I currently (for six more weeks until unemployed) work a 9-5 job in addition to launching my own business. I get off “work,” and I go home to “work.” Only the latter is so much fun; it seems wrong to call it “work.”
Another aspect of this line is doing what you love comes first, money second. You will notice it does not say you don’t need money! You need it for basic needs, but life is more enjoyable if you are living it doing what you love and have just enough money to get by, as opposed to being rich and doing something you hate. I feel that is what is being said here.
Iny my life, I am trying to live by the creed “Figure out what you love, and find how to do it.” The first part is not easy, but once done the second part is where the work begins. As you can’t do it if you can’t afford to eat or purchase the things necessary to do it. So income is a part of it, but that is the secondary part.
On the hocus pocus that my flow is when it’s hopeless
Even when it seems like everybody jokes at My expense it don’t make no sense like Offering a cokehead a couple sodas
Let’s break this one down a different way. Ok, so obviously you have a reference of addiction here, such as the cokehead. How does that equate to you making changes in your life, being an addiction comparable to the example? Simple.
Keep in mind if you have gotten to this point of making these changes and implementing them, you have all those demons we talked about. So now you’re making changes to your life and you have other people that you interact with, maybe for other things or other reasons.
They ask you what you are doing, or you have told people. They joke about it “Hey Henry, how’s that new song coming?” with big smiles. Maybe it’s the parent telling you to get a haircut and a real job.
See, all the sheep around you have been taught they have to think a certain way, and they haven’t broken out of the mold you are trying to get out of so that you can be who you are and who you want to be.
So all those people around you, in their way will sabotage you if you let them. They may not mean to sometimes, they just are too closed minded to look outside the box. Others will mean to out of jealousy, spite, and self-loathing. The lesson here is, the cans of Coke are going to be offered to you, daily. Avoid them as much as you can, but learn the discipline to say no. You do that by continually revisiting what you are doing and who you are.Change means continual self-evaluation.
Keep my mind open like a lotus
I suppose it’s how I wrote this opus
And it’s dope as fuck and now you knowin’ who’s the coldest
All you gotta do is show me where the throne is
Plague ‘em like a million locusts
I slay ‘em with the mic and kill opponents
‘Cause it’s my moment and I will own it
But I’m beggin’ for change like I’m still homeless
I don’t want to dig too deep into the individual parts of this section but look at it as a whole. What Dan is rapping here is that he’s making his changes (the are never truly made, it is a continual process), and he’s happy, he’s loving it, he’s doing it, and he sees why it’s good.
In short, it was his ideas, work, efforts, CHANGE that lead him to this point. It is his moment and no one else’s, he has to own it. It’s not just about being good or the best. It’s about doing the best you can because you are doing what you choose and wanted, and are choosing. When you stop owning that, then you need to move to something else you do own.
Because owning that moment is about love, passion, enjoyment. Without those things, you did not make the right change. That may not give you what you need forever, and you may require more change some day. For now though Own that damn moment you choose and that makes you happy!
So why is he still begging for change then? He’s made his change!
Not at all. Change has many aspects to it and remember when money is second? Ok so you’re doing what you love, you are happy or at least more comfortable, and that feeling is growing more as you listen to your heart each day. Secondly, though, you still need to pay the bills.
Ok, so another one wrapped up and ready to go out! As always, these are my opinions, not fact. If they are stated in a way that makes them sound as if fact it is only how I am expressing what I believe them to mean. This series of articles on this album are being done with the permission of the band and producer.
First, my apologies for delays on the continuation of this project! I feel a bit behind on things for a while and am jubilant to be continuing where I left off.
These pieces may not seem like a like of content, but regardless of that they can take three to four hours each and so while I hate it, sometimes they must be sat aside until I have a completely free evening 🙂
Excuses out of the way lets talk about Sirius B.
So let’s Recap them Lyrics and discuss!
Buckle up your seatbelts we about to leave on a road trip
The first line is just an intro primarily, but I think in a way it is also saying “Listen to us please, and pay close attention because what we are going to say is important.” Let’s see what they have to say!
I feel this song is very much using the metaphor of taking a ship into space, and going into space, as a journey through your mind, the state of mind, and going to a place where you are happy. A sort of a break from the everyday things that drag you down and make life “hard” or take away your happiness. So it’s time to take a journey back to a place where you are happy.
Except there’s no road our ship takes off like a bomb exploded
No road here has the distinct meaning of they are talking about traveling through space. The deeper meaning is that they are traveling a path that is in the mind.
Stopped for gas at the Saturn but it was 150 a liter
So we hop on over to Venus it’s at least a little bit cheaper
And I had just left the station when I had to get off on the shoulder
License and registration do ya know why I pulled you over
You were doin’ 305 in a 200 million
The man, always putting you down, stopping you from doing what you want to. Society also does the same with its pressures to conform to it and to think the same, rather than going outside of what has been deemed accepted.
This can happen when you are going to unusual places even within your mind.
Also, that as you explore yourself, you will have those thoughts, beliefs, and pressure in your mind slowing you down but you just have to get past it.
You have to question everything so that you can come to your own understandings.
You’re lucky I like ya music son I saw you chuggin’ that Killians
Killian’s is a damned fine beer! Before microbreweries became common in my area and you drank nothing but the standard grocery store shelved beers, this was my beer of choice.
But he let me go I get back fine I step off the ship
Breaking away from those thoughts that are holding you back in your mind.
I’m finally home I take a deep breath as my skin wets from the mist
And try to think of Earth but it’s almost like I forget it exists
The only thing I know is that they makin’ a mess of that bitch
I think this is all about perspectives. Thinking in larger viewpoints and seeing things from the outside. Looking at how we treat our planet and the life on it, rather than being a part of it.
Takin’ a walk through the forest all the flowers lean toward us
You can tell they adore us and when the animals saw us
They lined up everyone from small as a flea to as big as a tyrannosaurus
And they started singing for us can’t remember it all
But I think the chorus was like
A union and sharing with everything. Plan, animal, and insect alike. The importance of life, all life in the world. Something that as you search yourself, understand yourself, and become happy that often weighs heavily on the mind in my experience.
(Chorus) Hello there
Welcome to the place you’re from
What is important is how this line is said. It says “The place you’re from,” it does not say “Home.” I feel that this is very much a reference to home, being a state of mind and not a physical place.
That at this part in the song you have reached within your inner mind that place of peace.
You’ve been away for far too long So sit back it’s all fine now
And just know that there’s a place for
You with us tonight
I feel that this is all talking about a place of comfort for you or within yourself.
Kick back with a six pack I’m good
The leaders back in the hood
Watch ships zigzag through the sky
Pop a couple Tictacs
He’s doing what makes him happy. It speaks about being happy and finding a place of happiness in yourself. Not doing physical things.
I know you’d Wanna be here
fact is ya could
Wanna make sure that’s understood
But ya gotta find your own way here
There ain’t no GPS trackin’ the route
You’d love it wanna take a tour
Something anyone that ever finds their own place of peace within themselves will understand, is that no one else could have put them there.
There are things you learn and that can be taught that give you tools to help you find that place, but ultimately only you can travel in your own mind.
That’s more of a metaphor here we can teleport
Go anywhere when we hella bored
Saw a car what’s that, what the hell’s it for
We can blink and be there we alien
You can travel anywhere in your own mind, once you learn the routes to take.
We don’t smoke weed we smoke uranium
You know you’re high when ya cranium Explodes with the sound of a crowded stadium
20 hour nights makin’ moonshine outta moonlight
We don’t need to eat but we keep food around so we can have food fights
You should hear the music homie we never do whats been done twice
Uh, better get some ice partys go ‘til third sunrise
Fuck with us that’d be unwise we could take you out in a burst of heat
But that’ll never happen ‘cause we believe in universal peace
So come party with us where the shots vanish mysteriously
And seriously that’s how we do on Sirius B
This is all much as we have seen throughout the song. We went up this huge hill if you will, and now we are on a straight piece of flatland racing along.
Metaphors for being happy and explorings one’s self. This can be done with other people is both a metaphor and at the same time it is not.
It mean’s share the journey with them. Explore yourself. Question everything, and then you will have a connection with each other.
Also enjoy the journey, not just the destination. Teleporting from earlier’s, cars, ships, and the continual fast movement of party, drinking, songs. Is all about enjoying the journey, not just the destination.
That’s what’s up That’s what’s up That’s what’s up That’s what’s up
Thatthatthatthat’s what’s up
Awwww man, and with that, it is time for me to wrap up this journey, which I took with Recap. I hope that those who didn’t fully understand the journey may now enjoy it more. Thank you for tagging along with me on this trip.
Remember, this series is being done with permission and is only my thoughts and impressions of their music. I may get some things wrong, I may put meaning where they did not intend it, and I am fully sure I’m not getting it all (Sometimes I have revelations by an even deeper meaning in a line, and then forget it again.. simply because their music has so much depth!).
You know I love you. I know your busy. Im busy to, very often and that is why I am lame and am still doing these peices, which I meant to have done when your new album launched. But… I very much would like a video for this song! *cracks wip*
You know that was a joke, very much in the reference of Richard Garriott getting fan mail and how the format it almost always was, which I figured you would get, being.. right. Although that video ONE OF THESE DAYS, would be epic :).
My favorite band, The Recap Band, and friends the Space Bards, recently put out a new album “Pronoia.” Frankly, it’s bad ass.
This was recently followed by the posting of a video for “Wrong War”! If you missed it here, you go! Also for those waiting on the next Lyric analytical from Neon Milk, bear with me. I will still be doing the rest of the album, but I am playing catch up from the last couple of weeks. It’ll be there in its own time, but it shall come, and it shall be good!
Be sure to follow the link to YouTube, give it a thumbs up, and drop a comment that Stile sent you!
Remember, this is only my opinions and even if stated in an accurate way is not meant more then as my opinion.
Hello, everyone! I apologize that his piece has been a little slow in the last couple of week. If I can, I am going to try to do the rest of the songs fairly quickly soon. I have quite a few articles I need to write and will be working on catching up, so bear with me!
Happy for now to get this one out to you. So let us listen to and see if we cannot understand the song “Fed Up” by Recap better!
I’m sick of waitin’ on this world to change
Guess I’ll pack up
My bags I’m leavin’ on a space plane
Guess I’m fed up
Guess I’m fed up
So the chorus of this song is a summary of the general theme of the song. Overall a turning of your back on the world and other people sort of thing. I do not want to go into the full theme here, though, as it is better to understand it from the lyrics, so read on.
(Sigh) Earth what the hell’s the matter with you Can’t ya see that your status as a civilized planet Is shatterin’ can you see the pattern yet
Our aliens are talking to us, asking us why aren’t we logically looking at our choices and decisions, what they are causing to happen, and making a change. I saw a Meme recently that said something along the lines of Those that do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it, and those that do will get to watch it repeated because no one else will. Something along those lines. Very apt to this verse!
Think you’ve come far but the blood’s still splatterin’ All over the world people die with teeth chatterin’ From the cold while these brats badgerin’
In general, I believe that as a species we feel we have accomplished a lot. We have! Computers, Nano Technology, Space travel, take your pick. Yet, with all of our accomplishments in many areas, we haven’t grown nearly as much regarding how we care for each other, and life on the planet. As a whole, we have remained a very selfish species. We have improved, but we still have a long way to go as there is a lot of NEEDLESS suffering in this world.
Fuckin’ dad for an ipad again and again
Not only being materialistic but needlessly so.
Y’all evolve slower than a mothafuckin’ mannekin
We know and have known for a long time know about all kinds of issues, concerns, problems, whatever you want to call them, that exist in this world. Some of these things are not easy to resolve, but some are. They continue to be issues. It’s insanity to want everyone to be the same, yet that has been the “social” acceptable norm for much of history.
Why does it always have to end this way
With me dismayed over all the horror every which way
Every time you feel like maybe we are progressing, things are changing. Something happens that makes you wonder how far we have progressed. No matter how hard you try and work, sometimes it feels like we continue to do and repeat the same mistakes. It sometimes feels like two steps back and one forward rather than two forward and one back.
If I were to bet I’d be takin’ the odds
You keep killin’ each other over fuckin’ paper and God
No matter how good it starts to look, it is starting to feel like it will just go wrong every time. Something will cause it. Money, religion, maybe politics or something else. Regardless when you look at the future it begins to feel like that is the history we are doomed to just keep repeating.
So let’s be realistic there ain’t a way to fix it
And if I stay here I’ma end up with my wrists slit
So make a quick list couple wings and a stick shift
Shootin’ for the stars guess we gonna need a ship kids
The metaphor on requiring a ship to leave is that people just find escapes rather than try to deal with things. Whatever your escape may be, music, books, games. That doesn’t mean those things are always an escape, but sometimes they can be. When they are used in a way to just hide and get away from the real world, is the metaphor being spoken of here.
That’s it I’m gettin’ off of this bitch yo
Earth is just a shitshow of schizo sickos
At each other’s throats like pit bulls it’s so Obvious they need help but fuck this yo Phase 1 I went and bought an RV
But it hardly would start we needed parts see Couldn’t fall asleep all week and 3 days Searchin’ for flux capacitators on ebay Scourin’ all of the yard sales
Gettin parts mailed to my house hey are there
Any packages from Carbondale with new hardware
I don’t need a bumper when there ain’t no poles or guard rails
Up there where we goin’ we ain’t gonna slow for no one
We don’t need no chauffeur bro when I can drive on my own and solo Hopin’ that the heat ain’t broken oh you know we coulda used Cloaking for the cops oh well guess it’ll have to do
This is all just a great fun metaphor extending on the previous one, for flavor and enjoyment. Except that there is also an underlying reference of building a ship and going to a planet is all a metaphor for withdrawing, however, it is you do it. Into your safe place and own sanctuaries.
In some cases, it can also be a preparation for suicide as a way to not have to deal with the world anymore.
(Chorus 2x) (Outro)
I’m up all night daydreamin’
Every time I close my eyes I see the way gleamin’ (Guess I’m fed up)
Goodbye to pain and sorrow
I can’t wait anymore I leave tomorrow
(Guess I’m fed up)
I’m up all night daydreamin’
Every time I close my eyes I see the way gleamin’ (Guess I’m fed up)
Goodbye to pain and sorrow
I can’t wait anymore I leave tomorrow
(Guess I’m fed up)
We leave out with the chorus again, and move onto the next song!
These articles are being done with the permissions of the band members and producer. They have no idea what I will be typing and see it when you do. These are my opinions and while they may be represented in a factual manner that is only for purposes of my attempts at making things more enjoyable to read. They are not meant to serve as the actual meanings of these songs, only my interpretations.
Remember, this is only my opinions and even if stated in a factual way is not meant more then as my opinion.
I would love to say this is one of my favorite songs on The Neon Milk album by Recap. Unfortunately, I learned I cannot say that about any song on the album because I love them all so much I can’t pick!
This song touches me personally as it is very much about not only the advice I have been trying to listen to for the past four years, but it’s something I started doing, am still working on, and is making me happier in life than I have ever been. Its a process to get to where you want to be, and if all goes in a year or so I will be fully there and living my life dreams. A large part of that is…
BEING WHO I WANNA BE!
That’s what I wanna be
Breaking free is talking about from society’s normal way of thinking, or the way you have been taught to think. It is also talking about where you are at now and getting out of that to be where you want to be instead.
See this world it makes my insides bend
Cracks splinter behind the mask I’m in
Maybe time draws near and they should know
This body that I wear is not my (not my home)
Insides bending is talking about the mental and emotional pain that we suffer from living in this world. Made harder when one is trying to be something or someone they are not.
The mask you are wearing causes your pain. The splinters and cracks in this mask poking into your face and head are talking about that by being someone you are not you just hurt yourself.
Time draws near and they should know is saying that it is time to be myself, it is time to change. They need to know means I need to tell other people so they can also be happy.
Home is a big metaphor in this entire album, and it means a place where you are happy, safe, and warm. By being someone, you are not, then you are not any of those things.
Starin’ at the stars like I’m studyin’ astronomy
Bidin’ my time ‘til they see fit to honor me
Anything but average when I’m on a beat
An anomaly that’s what I wanna be
Always looking elsewhere but where I should be is what the stars and astronomy line are referring to. An anomaly because being oneself is just that. Everyone in the world is very different and unique, and we all try to put everyone into this cookie cutter mold. Dare to be different.
Hell with Earth I’ll live among the clouds
These human traits inside have freaked me out
If I were God I’d send the angels down
Scratch this surface clean of human (human doubt)
Earth is a metaphor for the way things are mostly, right now for many. The need to follow a particular path for success whereas success is defined as one way. Instead of participating in this I will observe it and figure it out. What’s wrong with it, what’s right.
Many of the things people want to do are like “wow” really? Why would I do that? Why does this make sense? These are the traits freaking me out.
God and sending the Angels down to remove doubt. Doubt is the enemy, the mind killer. It is keeping people from doing and being who they want to be.
May sound strange but this our philosophy
Livin’ life by one code one policy
Everything’s a choice that ya gotta make conciously
And in all honesty that’s how I wanna be
(That’s how I wanna be)
So you have to decide whats right for you and live that way as a choice. It’s not an easy thing to do but that’s how I want to live. It won’t happen to a person by accident they have to choose to live this way even though it may not be the way you have been told to live.
(Bridge) White lights Break free God like White lights Break free God like
That’s what I wanna be
The bridge in this song is fantastic, as it’s very much more about doing it than talking about it. The happiness, euphoria of doing what you want, doing it well and thus making you feel it.
I’m sick of this planet I’ma form my own colony Ragin’ on the stage and there ain’t no calmin’ me Never gonna stop ‘til the states start bombin’ me A two man monarchy
That’s who we wanna be
(That’s who we wanna be)
Fuck ‘em all and be who you wanna be
At this point, I think you have this last chorus on your own if you didn’t already 🙂
Wow have the Recap Band been living it of late! Life that is. If you have been following them in their travels, they just got back from the Hobloth III LARP event in Austin, Texas. Talk about a road trip!
They are working on their next album, though, so I had better get a move on with getting this one done!
This first thing is the overall song is about life just like you would think from the title. So keep that in mind as we delve into the more subtle parts!
Started off at the bottom I watch the energies all ascend
As I indicated we are talking about life and you need to keep that in mind to understand the lyrics. This is saying that I started out in life at the bottom. Not born with a silver spoon in my mouth, rich, or with a big hand out. Instead, what I have or what I will get is what I make on my own. While I am trying to figure it all out I am watching all the other people racing after what they think they want.
Road blocks I topped them I’m pushing through to the end But my heart strings have taken space ‘round my throat My head beats back I’m slowly losing control
My purpose turns into one hell of a backstabbing friend
Bright ideas go dark night of my soul begins
I sit in silence up here
Floating in the outer stratosphere
So there you are watching all these people race towards what they what but what you want is different. Your finding that unlike other things you can’t just go after it, it’s a harder road being blocked.
Your loosing control and such because, well, think of it like an anxiety attack. You know you want this thing, but why can’t you go after it? Why is it wrong to do so in so many other people’s eyes?
You have all these passionate and amazing ideas but you feel like they are just fading to nothing. Not working out, can’t try it, or even just not given a chance to. So you are as far away from everything as you possibly can be just observing it all and watching…
Floating in the outer stratosphere
My best illusions are the first ones to fall
Life’s lonely when you’re sitting on top of the world
It’s everything you want or its nothing at all
That’s life when you’re sitting on top of the world
I have a hard time with the chorus because I can see some different meanings here. I think that’s the point. This song has some transitional parts to it. What I mean by that is it is talking about a particular stage in life, yet it also has a between the lines vibe of, this is an earlier stage, and there are other stages that come later.
First, I think that it is saying that as you are going out and following these ideas you have in life, you realize how wrong you were. The things you felt strongest about are the ones that you discover first, and this allows you to find others then.
However, part of that is finding you and understanding yourself. That is a hard thing that while others may lend some aid through their experiences, in the end, everyoens path is different.
When you figure yourself out, who and what you want out of life, you may find happiness, or may find that you are still unhappy. Unable to either achieve what you need to to be happy or even perhaps doing so find you’re still not happy, and you didnt understand things as well as you thought.
That’s what it is all about! Is it, though?
Is it also perhaps not also that when you take the courage to rip away the largest illusions and falsehoods that you have weaved around your mind, that this allows you to discover yourself and achieve happiness?
Which while a terrific thing, even just figuring out the path can also be a hard thing. You have learned some lessons about yourself and about life, which just cannot be entirely taught. You can help provide hints, direction, but everyone has to get there on their own. That is a frustrating and lonely position to be in!
Either you will be at peace with what you have found for yourself and be happy, or because you have a need to help other people, not able just to enjoy it for yourself but also most share it with others that its not everything and everything you need and want can only be failed with continual effort. In fact, you may find that part of being happy in life means contributing a certain part of it to others and without that, you cannot truly be happy.
Finally and most importantly, though, what it most directly means is that maybe you do something in life because it is what you have been led to believe you should do. Whether it is your parent’s, your peers, your employees, or academia, this is the path you have been convinced that has been lain out for you.
You win man! You get their baby! Then you find out you are not happy. Now you have to look at yourself and your life, what you have been taught, and only by completely destroying part of who you are can you rebuild to figure out what you need to do for yourself. Like those damned illusions rip that bandaid away quick because it is going to hurt! Or in this case, duct tape! In this meaning, it also is good as a chorus as you may have to do this in life more than once. It never really truly ends in fact.
My thoughts are caught in orbit watching belief systems burn
I try to ignore it but then I hear their concerns
And I falter gravity pulls me down fast
I can’t hold back I’m reaching critical mass
My eyes both remain closed I’m seeing nothing but black
I’m blasting off this psychedelic track Swimming in chemicals up here Inside my upper hemisphere
This overall is not much different than the first verse. Watching belief system burn is a correlation to ripping the illusions away.
I try to ignore it means that I do not listen to what others are telling me but then what they are saying begin to convince me I am wrong after a while. I start listening to them.
That causes me to fail really quick and now I don’t know how to succeed. The more I am convinced it seems like the unhappier I become. Until I am so mind washed by them that all I see and do means nothing.
It’s time to get off all these chemicals and drugs, which equate to the mind washing of society and people. Time to follow the path that is there inside your head, you just have to learn to follow it.
(Chorus) (Verse 3)
Feels like I’m up against a brick wall
Waiting for the day that shit falls
Seems like this is my pitfall
Throwing rocks might as well be throwing spit balls
‘Cause the bricks all line up like a psychedelic jigsaw
Only one way in it’s this y’all
And it’s all still pulling me forward like a rickshaw
Gotta get to paradise
Got enough bad memories terabytes
I just wanna rap but I’m scared of mics
I wanna be on top but I’m scared of heights
Guess it all comes back to fear
Sweatin’ whole clips it’s that severe
‘Cause it’s high pressure in this atmosphere
Breaking down the last verse goes something like the first. Ok, I realize how bad that was, but I am keeping it.
Ok, the brick wall, shit falling, and pitfall. These are all about having a hard time breaking away from the constraints that have been put on you by what everyone and everything has taught you to believe.
You try to break away from those teachings and find you own, throw rocks at the walls they have created in your mind but it is hard, it doesn’t do much, those rocks are like spitballs.
It’s not this straight, organized wall that makes sense. You haven’t been told all lies. Some things are real, some are partly right but only when looked at or viewed at in particular ways. Other things are utterly wrong. Some things apply to some but not others. If I destroy it all where do I start over? If I don’t destroy it all what do I pick and choose? How do I take out all these wrong pieces and re-assemble it all in a way that is proper without all the right pieces?
I know this makes me happy, I know I enjoy doing this. So all I can do right now is try this with everything I have. I will keep searching for all the answers, the meanings, and the rest. This I know is good though and so I will give it everything I have in the hopes it helps me find everything I need.
It’s hard though because I have been wrong before and tried the wrong things. There’s risk, and time, and money. I don’t want to worry about all of that; I just want to do what I enjoy. I don’t have a choice though because while I am scared, I have no other options, I have to do this because there is currently nothing else to try. I can’t give up, even though I am terrified, so I will keep working and keep figuring the things out at the same time.
These articles are being done with the permissions of the band members and producer. They have no idea what I will be typing and see it when you do. These are my opinions and while they may be represented in a factual manner that is only for purposes of my attempts at making things more enjoyable to read. They are not meant to serve as the actual meanings of these songs, only my interepertations.
I was jubilant with how this entire pieces came out the other night for Secrets. Although in general even though I am doing Starship now, I am looking more forward to some of the songs further into the album. While everything on this album has a lot of meaning to me, some songs delve deeper and have multiple things going on making it a lot more to share with you. I thought about skipping around a bit, but no.. I will do this in order. Again, these are my opinions, not fact.
So in as much as in we left off with Secrets last time, I also believe that the song did the same thing. The song ended with our farmer going ballistic and raising a fuss, but the alien shrugged it off and moved on. That’s what the song represented, and we are now going to look at “Phone Home (Starship)” where in my opinion the band members are also telling you about themselves and who they are, again using the same metaphor I explained.
So that last song was to say to you… I am different then what is the norm of society, and here are stereotypes to show you what I mean. I am breaking away from that, trying to become myself, and now I am going to tell you a bit more about who I am.
So here we go, Analyzing the Lyrics of “Starship” by The Recap Band, From the Album “Neon Milk”!
I’m here from another dimension
May I please just have your attention
I am different than you and as a result, I have spent my life having to live differently than you. I want to tell you about it.
I been sensin’ a lot of tension on your planet
You got a long ways to ascension
But me I’m a higher intelligence
Observing the universes elegance
Out in space smokin’ on a fat bowl
Things are changing in recent years. Minorities are being looked at different, equality and what that means is expanding. The geek culture is starting to be more accepted, women in gaming, all sorts of things that are ways of life and hobbies to many over the years, are now starting to come out. This is what that tension speaks about. Whatever it is about you that isolated you from the majority of people around you and how that affects life for us all as a species.
You also have all the changes being made in the world, the progress. America has it’s first black president, gay rights are approved, states legalize marijuana, and so on. Things like Change.org, Kickstarter, and Patreon are causing changes faster than ever before, but there’s still so much more to happen.
We still have a long way to go, though. People still judge without trying to understand. People are still sometimes outcasts for their beliefs or ways of life. It’s getting better, but long ways to go.
I’ve been one of these people because of my choices or interests. As such I have a viewpoint or perspective from outside of it. Not only have I live in this perspective, but I have been studying it. From different sides, opinions trying to learn the best way, the right way. I want to share it, see what you think so that maybe we can find a better way together.
Fuck the world I’ma stick it to a black hole
Huh, people talkin’ that ching chang
But you know I gotta keep the balance like a ying yang
When I’m on the mic I might cause another big bang
That’s just how I do when I’m goin’ in mang
You can’t do things because that’s the way society says it should be, or that everyone you know tells you that’s how it should be. Fuck that; I am going to do it my way, the way that will make me happy.
All these things that other people are saying, that’s not right for me. Instead, I have to find my balance, a way to be who I am and still live in your world and try to be accepted by it.
I’m going to speak up about it; I am going to tell you who I am and why. I am not going to hide it anymore; some people may disagree, but more people are listening and open to the changes that are happening, and I want to be a part of that and help to make it happen.
If you ever turn on your TV
And see me land my ship in DC
Oh don’t worry you got nothin’ to fear, kids
I’m only here to help build more pyramids
I want to be seen and heard because I want to help. I have some insights, and the world can be a better place. It is getting better, changes are happening but only if we come together as an entire world and build big things, can we truly accomplish. It;s, not something to be scared of because it’s just a way of life that makes you happier. It doesn’t cost anything; it’s just about understanding.
Where was my starship all these days
Why am I down here anyway
Starship me away
The Starship is the path. The right way to live and to be happy. Why have I spent my time hiding and being afraid, and trying to fit in rather than just embracing who I am? Time to take the correct path.
You can’t get there on your own, though, hence the Starship metaphor. It helps you get there. In this case, that help could be anything, understanding, other people, etc…
Now I’m not sayin’ it was aliens but
It was aliens definitely was
Gave me the skills to keep the house shakin’ Musta been them it wasn’t God or Satan
It was other people like myself and their belief in me that is helping me to figure out how to live. The right way to do this, and the energy to keep going. The progress and changes that are already taking place, people that are causing change. It wasn’t any religious belief or cult that helped me; it was just ordinary citizens being themselves and accepting me for who I am.
I’m still just patiently waitin’
For the day when I don’t have to wear a fake grin
Ain’t perfect but I hide my flaws well
I just cover ‘em up like Roswell
I want to be myself all the time. I am figuring out how I want to live and how to be who I am. The worlds being more accepting of individualism and judging less. It’s not there though but I know how to hide them when I need to. Really well so that people don’t know I am different.
If starships are meant to fly
Then maybe my hard ships are meant to go byebye
Most of us just hope and sigh
You lookin’ for a better life homie so am I
If there is a way to do this, get where I am going and to be happy I can put the past behind. Why do we have to be unhappy? Most people don’t try they just give in and mold with society, learn to accept it and be as happy as they can. Trudging along in their life but hoping for something better. We’re the same, we just want to live in this world and make the best of it. Let me be happy the way I need to, I am not hurting you.
That’s why I’m up on this stage rappin’
Y’all never know what could possibly happen
Snare is clappin’ bass is boomin’ Almost makes me wish I was human
I’m just trying to say to everyone. I don’t want to hurt you; I just want to be me. If I talk about it, maybe It will help. Maybe it could cause real change to happen in the world. Hell, I am having fun just conveying the word, I almost wish I could just make music and not have to worry about all the other stuff in life. That what I want, to do what I enjoy and not worry about how others see me or how I fit in.
Where was my starship all these days Phphphone home I got to phone home Why am I down here anyway
Starship me away
I feel this is sufficiently explained at this point 🙂
The ships are aware. They are conscious beings of a sort, and are directly connected to the consciousness of the socalled occupants or
pilots of the craft.
I’m in this world
But I’m not of this world
(I’m in this world)
I may be a part of this planet, living on it, working on it. At the same time, I am not, though, as I have not been made welcome.
Pick up the radio to phone home
Nothin’ but static and no dial tone
Gotta get used to bein’ alone
It’s a big world that I’ma go roam
Home is a metaphor for a place that you are, in which you are happy, warm and fuzzy. Welcome, and there are those around you who don’t judge you. Finding that place is hard, though. So just have to settle for what I have and maybe look around a lot to try to find it.
Pick up the radio to phone home Naw fuck that I’m in my own zone
When I leave I’m gonna tear a hole in the sky
That’s bigger than the ones in the mothafuckin’ ozone
No, that’s the wrong way to do it. I need to MAKE my home. I need to create it with everything I have. Give it every part of myself and encourage others to do the same. I need to make sure I can’t be ignored.
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Phphphone home I got to phone home
I have to keep trying, I have to get through the static and do whatever it takes to find my home and where it is.
That wraps up this song. As you will find from my continuation of this segment on The Caverns, the songs in the album not only have individual meaning but an overall path that they follow to grow upon each other.
See you next time, and I will bring the Vanilla Vodka!