If your not familiar with Dan Span and his work, get that way! He has serious talent and your going to want to be able to say someday “I was listening to him before he was as big as Snoop Dogg!”. As not only a friend, but official number 1 fan, I know what im talking about here!
Remember, this is only my opinions and even if stated in a factual way is not meant more then as my opinion.
I would love to say this is one of my favorite songs on The Neon Milk album by Recap. Unfortunately, I learned I cannot say that about any song on the album because I love them all so much I can’t pick!
This song touches me personally as it is very much about not only the advice I have been trying to listen to for the past four years, but it’s something I started doing, am still working on, and is making me happier in life than I have ever been. Its a process to get to where you want to be, and if all goes in a year or so I will be fully there and living my life dreams. A large part of that is…
BEING WHO I WANNA BE!
That’s what I wanna be
Breaking free is talking about from society’s normal way of thinking, or the way you have been taught to think. It is also talking about where you are at now and getting out of that to be where you want to be instead.
See this world it makes my insides bend
Cracks splinter behind the mask I’m in
Maybe time draws near and they should know
This body that I wear is not my (not my home)
Insides bending is talking about the mental and emotional pain that we suffer from living in this world. Made harder when one is trying to be something or someone they are not.
The mask you are wearing causes your pain. The splinters and cracks in this mask poking into your face and head are talking about that by being someone you are not you just hurt yourself.
Time draws near and they should know is saying that it is time to be myself, it is time to change. They need to know means I need to tell other people so they can also be happy.
Home is a big metaphor in this entire album, and it means a place where you are happy, safe, and warm. By being someone, you are not, then you are not any of those things.
Starin’ at the stars like I’m studyin’ astronomy
Bidin’ my time ‘til they see fit to honor me
Anything but average when I’m on a beat
An anomaly that’s what I wanna be
Always looking elsewhere but where I should be is what the stars and astronomy line are referring to. An anomaly because being oneself is just that. Everyone in the world is very different and unique, and we all try to put everyone into this cookie cutter mold. Dare to be different.
Hell with Earth I’ll live among the clouds
These human traits inside have freaked me out
If I were God I’d send the angels down
Scratch this surface clean of human (human doubt)
Earth is a metaphor for the way things are mostly, right now for many. The need to follow a particular path for success whereas success is defined as one way. Instead of participating in this I will observe it and figure it out. What’s wrong with it, what’s right.
Many of the things people want to do are like “wow” really? Why would I do that? Why does this make sense? These are the traits freaking me out.
God and sending the Angels down to remove doubt. Doubt is the enemy, the mind killer. It is keeping people from doing and being who they want to be.
May sound strange but this our philosophy
Livin’ life by one code one policy
Everything’s a choice that ya gotta make conciously
And in all honesty that’s how I wanna be
(That’s how I wanna be)
So you have to decide whats right for you and live that way as a choice. It’s not an easy thing to do but that’s how I want to live. It won’t happen to a person by accident they have to choose to live this way even though it may not be the way you have been told to live.
(Bridge) White lights Break free God like White lights Break free God like
That’s what I wanna be
The bridge in this song is fantastic, as it’s very much more about doing it than talking about it. The happiness, euphoria of doing what you want, doing it well and thus making you feel it.
I’m sick of this planet I’ma form my own colony Ragin’ on the stage and there ain’t no calmin’ me Never gonna stop ‘til the states start bombin’ me A two man monarchy
That’s who we wanna be
(That’s who we wanna be)
Fuck ‘em all and be who you wanna be
At this point, I think you have this last chorus on your own if you didn’t already 🙂
Wow have the Recap Band been living it of late! Life that is. If you have been following them in their travels, they just got back from the Hobloth III LARP event in Austin, Texas. Talk about a road trip!
They are working on their next album, though, so I had better get a move on with getting this one done!
This first thing is the overall song is about life just like you would think from the title. So keep that in mind as we delve into the more subtle parts!
Started off at the bottom I watch the energies all ascend
As I indicated we are talking about life and you need to keep that in mind to understand the lyrics. This is saying that I started out in life at the bottom. Not born with a silver spoon in my mouth, rich, or with a big hand out. Instead, what I have or what I will get is what I make on my own. While I am trying to figure it all out I am watching all the other people racing after what they think they want.
Road blocks I topped them I’m pushing through to the end But my heart strings have taken space ‘round my throat My head beats back I’m slowly losing control
My purpose turns into one hell of a backstabbing friend
Bright ideas go dark night of my soul begins
I sit in silence up here
Floating in the outer stratosphere
So there you are watching all these people race towards what they what but what you want is different. Your finding that unlike other things you can’t just go after it, it’s a harder road being blocked.
Your loosing control and such because, well, think of it like an anxiety attack. You know you want this thing, but why can’t you go after it? Why is it wrong to do so in so many other people’s eyes?
You have all these passionate and amazing ideas but you feel like they are just fading to nothing. Not working out, can’t try it, or even just not given a chance to. So you are as far away from everything as you possibly can be just observing it all and watching…
Floating in the outer stratosphere
My best illusions are the first ones to fall
Life’s lonely when you’re sitting on top of the world
It’s everything you want or its nothing at all
That’s life when you’re sitting on top of the world
I have a hard time with the chorus because I can see some different meanings here. I think that’s the point. This song has some transitional parts to it. What I mean by that is it is talking about a particular stage in life, yet it also has a between the lines vibe of, this is an earlier stage, and there are other stages that come later.
First, I think that it is saying that as you are going out and following these ideas you have in life, you realize how wrong you were. The things you felt strongest about are the ones that you discover first, and this allows you to find others then.
However, part of that is finding you and understanding yourself. That is a hard thing that while others may lend some aid through their experiences, in the end, everyoens path is different.
When you figure yourself out, who and what you want out of life, you may find happiness, or may find that you are still unhappy. Unable to either achieve what you need to to be happy or even perhaps doing so find you’re still not happy, and you didnt understand things as well as you thought.
That’s what it is all about! Is it, though?
Is it also perhaps not also that when you take the courage to rip away the largest illusions and falsehoods that you have weaved around your mind, that this allows you to discover yourself and achieve happiness?
Which while a terrific thing, even just figuring out the path can also be a hard thing. You have learned some lessons about yourself and about life, which just cannot be entirely taught. You can help provide hints, direction, but everyone has to get there on their own. That is a frustrating and lonely position to be in!
Either you will be at peace with what you have found for yourself and be happy, or because you have a need to help other people, not able just to enjoy it for yourself but also most share it with others that its not everything and everything you need and want can only be failed with continual effort. In fact, you may find that part of being happy in life means contributing a certain part of it to others and without that, you cannot truly be happy.
Finally and most importantly, though, what it most directly means is that maybe you do something in life because it is what you have been led to believe you should do. Whether it is your parent’s, your peers, your employees, or academia, this is the path you have been convinced that has been lain out for you.
You win man! You get their baby! Then you find out you are not happy. Now you have to look at yourself and your life, what you have been taught, and only by completely destroying part of who you are can you rebuild to figure out what you need to do for yourself. Like those damned illusions rip that bandaid away quick because it is going to hurt! Or in this case, duct tape! In this meaning, it also is good as a chorus as you may have to do this in life more than once. It never really truly ends in fact.
My thoughts are caught in orbit watching belief systems burn
I try to ignore it but then I hear their concerns
And I falter gravity pulls me down fast
I can’t hold back I’m reaching critical mass
My eyes both remain closed I’m seeing nothing but black
I’m blasting off this psychedelic track Swimming in chemicals up here Inside my upper hemisphere
This overall is not much different than the first verse. Watching belief system burn is a correlation to ripping the illusions away.
I try to ignore it means that I do not listen to what others are telling me but then what they are saying begin to convince me I am wrong after a while. I start listening to them.
That causes me to fail really quick and now I don’t know how to succeed. The more I am convinced it seems like the unhappier I become. Until I am so mind washed by them that all I see and do means nothing.
It’s time to get off all these chemicals and drugs, which equate to the mind washing of society and people. Time to follow the path that is there inside your head, you just have to learn to follow it.
(Chorus) (Verse 3)
Feels like I’m up against a brick wall
Waiting for the day that shit falls
Seems like this is my pitfall
Throwing rocks might as well be throwing spit balls
‘Cause the bricks all line up like a psychedelic jigsaw
Only one way in it’s this y’all
And it’s all still pulling me forward like a rickshaw
Gotta get to paradise
Got enough bad memories terabytes
I just wanna rap but I’m scared of mics
I wanna be on top but I’m scared of heights
Guess it all comes back to fear
Sweatin’ whole clips it’s that severe
‘Cause it’s high pressure in this atmosphere
Breaking down the last verse goes something like the first. Ok, I realize how bad that was, but I am keeping it.
Ok, the brick wall, shit falling, and pitfall. These are all about having a hard time breaking away from the constraints that have been put on you by what everyone and everything has taught you to believe.
You try to break away from those teachings and find you own, throw rocks at the walls they have created in your mind but it is hard, it doesn’t do much, those rocks are like spitballs.
It’s not this straight, organized wall that makes sense. You haven’t been told all lies. Some things are real, some are partly right but only when looked at or viewed at in particular ways. Other things are utterly wrong. Some things apply to some but not others. If I destroy it all where do I start over? If I don’t destroy it all what do I pick and choose? How do I take out all these wrong pieces and re-assemble it all in a way that is proper without all the right pieces?
I know this makes me happy, I know I enjoy doing this. So all I can do right now is try this with everything I have. I will keep searching for all the answers, the meanings, and the rest. This I know is good though and so I will give it everything I have in the hopes it helps me find everything I need.
It’s hard though because I have been wrong before and tried the wrong things. There’s risk, and time, and money. I don’t want to worry about all of that; I just want to do what I enjoy. I don’t have a choice though because while I am scared, I have no other options, I have to do this because there is currently nothing else to try. I can’t give up, even though I am terrified, so I will keep working and keep figuring the things out at the same time.
These articles are being done with the permissions of the band members and producer. They have no idea what I will be typing and see it when you do. These are my opinions and while they may be represented in a factual manner that is only for purposes of my attempts at making things more enjoyable to read. They are not meant to serve as the actual meanings of these songs, only my interepertations.
I was jubilant with how this entire pieces came out the other night for Secrets. Although in general even though I am doing Starship now, I am looking more forward to some of the songs further into the album. While everything on this album has a lot of meaning to me, some songs delve deeper and have multiple things going on making it a lot more to share with you. I thought about skipping around a bit, but no.. I will do this in order. Again, these are my opinions, not fact.
So in as much as in we left off with Secrets last time, I also believe that the song did the same thing. The song ended with our farmer going ballistic and raising a fuss, but the alien shrugged it off and moved on. That’s what the song represented, and we are now going to look at “Phone Home (Starship)” where in my opinion the band members are also telling you about themselves and who they are, again using the same metaphor I explained.
So that last song was to say to you… I am different then what is the norm of society, and here are stereotypes to show you what I mean. I am breaking away from that, trying to become myself, and now I am going to tell you a bit more about who I am.
So here we go, Analyzing the Lyrics of “Starship” by The Recap Band, From the Album “Neon Milk”!
I’m here from another dimension
May I please just have your attention
I am different than you and as a result, I have spent my life having to live differently than you. I want to tell you about it.
I been sensin’ a lot of tension on your planet
You got a long ways to ascension
But me I’m a higher intelligence
Observing the universes elegance
Out in space smokin’ on a fat bowl
Things are changing in recent years. Minorities are being looked at different, equality and what that means is expanding. The geek culture is starting to be more accepted, women in gaming, all sorts of things that are ways of life and hobbies to many over the years, are now starting to come out. This is what that tension speaks about. Whatever it is about you that isolated you from the majority of people around you and how that affects life for us all as a species.
You also have all the changes being made in the world, the progress. America has it’s first black president, gay rights are approved, states legalize marijuana, and so on. Things like Change.org, Kickstarter, and Patreon are causing changes faster than ever before, but there’s still so much more to happen.
We still have a long way to go, though. People still judge without trying to understand. People are still sometimes outcasts for their beliefs or ways of life. It’s getting better, but long ways to go.
I’ve been one of these people because of my choices or interests. As such I have a viewpoint or perspective from outside of it. Not only have I live in this perspective, but I have been studying it. From different sides, opinions trying to learn the best way, the right way. I want to share it, see what you think so that maybe we can find a better way together.
Fuck the world I’ma stick it to a black hole
Huh, people talkin’ that ching chang
But you know I gotta keep the balance like a ying yang
When I’m on the mic I might cause another big bang
That’s just how I do when I’m goin’ in mang
You can’t do things because that’s the way society says it should be, or that everyone you know tells you that’s how it should be. Fuck that; I am going to do it my way, the way that will make me happy.
All these things that other people are saying, that’s not right for me. Instead, I have to find my balance, a way to be who I am and still live in your world and try to be accepted by it.
I’m going to speak up about it; I am going to tell you who I am and why. I am not going to hide it anymore; some people may disagree, but more people are listening and open to the changes that are happening, and I want to be a part of that and help to make it happen.
If you ever turn on your TV
And see me land my ship in DC
Oh don’t worry you got nothin’ to fear, kids
I’m only here to help build more pyramids
I want to be seen and heard because I want to help. I have some insights, and the world can be a better place. It is getting better, changes are happening but only if we come together as an entire world and build big things, can we truly accomplish. It;s, not something to be scared of because it’s just a way of life that makes you happier. It doesn’t cost anything; it’s just about understanding.
Where was my starship all these days
Why am I down here anyway
Starship me away
The Starship is the path. The right way to live and to be happy. Why have I spent my time hiding and being afraid, and trying to fit in rather than just embracing who I am? Time to take the correct path.
You can’t get there on your own, though, hence the Starship metaphor. It helps you get there. In this case, that help could be anything, understanding, other people, etc…
Now I’m not sayin’ it was aliens but
It was aliens definitely was
Gave me the skills to keep the house shakin’ Musta been them it wasn’t God or Satan
It was other people like myself and their belief in me that is helping me to figure out how to live. The right way to do this, and the energy to keep going. The progress and changes that are already taking place, people that are causing change. It wasn’t any religious belief or cult that helped me; it was just ordinary citizens being themselves and accepting me for who I am.
I’m still just patiently waitin’
For the day when I don’t have to wear a fake grin
Ain’t perfect but I hide my flaws well
I just cover ‘em up like Roswell
I want to be myself all the time. I am figuring out how I want to live and how to be who I am. The worlds being more accepting of individualism and judging less. It’s not there though but I know how to hide them when I need to. Really well so that people don’t know I am different.
If starships are meant to fly
Then maybe my hard ships are meant to go byebye
Most of us just hope and sigh
You lookin’ for a better life homie so am I
If there is a way to do this, get where I am going and to be happy I can put the past behind. Why do we have to be unhappy? Most people don’t try they just give in and mold with society, learn to accept it and be as happy as they can. Trudging along in their life but hoping for something better. We’re the same, we just want to live in this world and make the best of it. Let me be happy the way I need to, I am not hurting you.
That’s why I’m up on this stage rappin’
Y’all never know what could possibly happen
Snare is clappin’ bass is boomin’ Almost makes me wish I was human
I’m just trying to say to everyone. I don’t want to hurt you; I just want to be me. If I talk about it, maybe It will help. Maybe it could cause real change to happen in the world. Hell, I am having fun just conveying the word, I almost wish I could just make music and not have to worry about all the other stuff in life. That what I want, to do what I enjoy and not worry about how others see me or how I fit in.
Where was my starship all these days Phphphone home I got to phone home Why am I down here anyway
Starship me away
I feel this is sufficiently explained at this point 🙂
The ships are aware. They are conscious beings of a sort, and are directly connected to the consciousness of the socalled occupants or
pilots of the craft.
I’m in this world
But I’m not of this world
(I’m in this world)
I may be a part of this planet, living on it, working on it. At the same time, I am not, though, as I have not been made welcome.
Pick up the radio to phone home
Nothin’ but static and no dial tone
Gotta get used to bein’ alone
It’s a big world that I’ma go roam
Home is a metaphor for a place that you are, in which you are happy, warm and fuzzy. Welcome, and there are those around you who don’t judge you. Finding that place is hard, though. So just have to settle for what I have and maybe look around a lot to try to find it.
Pick up the radio to phone home Naw fuck that I’m in my own zone
When I leave I’m gonna tear a hole in the sky
That’s bigger than the ones in the mothafuckin’ ozone
No, that’s the wrong way to do it. I need to MAKE my home. I need to create it with everything I have. Give it every part of myself and encourage others to do the same. I need to make sure I can’t be ignored.
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Starship me away
Phphphone home I got to phone home
Phphphone home I got to phone home
I have to keep trying, I have to get through the static and do whatever it takes to find my home and where it is.
That wraps up this song. As you will find from my continuation of this segment on The Caverns, the songs in the album not only have individual meaning but an overall path that they follow to grow upon each other.
See you next time, and I will bring the Vanilla Vodka!
Let’s do the first track, but before I dive into that, I need to discuss the album a bit. Everything in this post even when stated as if it sounds like a fact, is just my personal opinions.
The album itself has an overall theme of two aliens who have crash landed on earth, spend some time on land, leave, then come back. This is a metaphor for the artists themselves.
We all feel different at times from others in our lives. At times, we think about who we are, who the people around us are, the meaning of life. Perhaps because of your interests and hobbies or the way you approach life and what your goals are, society does not make you feel like you belong. Like… You are an alien.
The title track “Secrets” is on the apparent front seemingly a song about these aliens who land on earth and they have all these secrets that people want from them. I think beyond that though this song is about a lot more.
The secrets referred to are a metaphor for something else. Their experiences, their life lessons, and how they have interpreted them. Also at the same time, it can mean the things they keep to themselves, the mask they wear in the day to day world to be more accepted. Let’s dive into the lyrics now.
I’ve got a mind full of secrets
A whole mountainside full of causes and reasons
A whole mountainside full of causes and reasons is talking about the examination of yourself, others around you, the world, the meaning of the life the universe and everything. Past actions, regrets, future choices.
Shining my light inside the shadows
This line is talking about that self-reflection of oneself. Searching in your mind and the world around you, to look in places where others may not, to find answers.
The life that I live is just an echo, echo
The wearing of a mask, being different then you want to be so as to be more accepted by society. At stores, your job, wherever it is. Pretending to like sports, or wearing a polo when you are a t-shirt guy. Not talking about your latest hobby because since it’s not the in the thing you either fear being pushed away, judged, not understood.
Woa wait a minute how the hell did I get here
Think I need another minute just to let my head clear
Looks like I’m layin’ in some kinda bed, weird
Who are all these people dressed in white
With the red smeared on ‘em?
They say it was a smooth procedure
The specimen’s alive no signs of fever
Yup it’s breathing fine and it’s heart is beating normally
Nurse sedate it ‘cause when it wakes up it might get ornery
Our aliens crash here on earth and what happens? They are being taken apart and analyzed, trying to figure out what makes them tick. This translates into being judged, evaluated, and even others trying to change you because you are different.
But you can’t corner me like that so I broke the straps
Haulin’ ass runnin’ fast nobody can hold me back
Comatose, I will never take another nap like that
Feelin’ kinda stiff I think I need somebody to crack my back
That’s how I escape the lab now I’m on a brand new planet
Still strugglin’ for a way to understand you, dammit
You say there’s nothing new but I’ma fill that deficit
Y’all humans didn’t know who in the fuck you were messin’ with
Choosing to break free and to be true to one’s self. To stop hiding from the world and instead to just be who you are. Still trying to understand everyone and everything around you but not giving up yourself while doing it. Ready to stand up and fight to be yourself.
First contact I came across a farmhouse
Walk up slowly on the lawn with my arms out
Rockin’ back and forth on his chair turned his head to me
Spit a wad of black shit out then he said to me
Approaching people and the world in peace, while being who you are.
Evening to you neighbor you can can call me Mister Doe
My wife’s name is Jane all the kids have moved out though
Can you see my white fence there with all the pickets?
My truck’s pretty big too unlike my penis
But did I mention that my pension has a 401k?
My wife and I’ll retire in the Florida Keys?
(ahp) See you later neighbor that’s my dinner bell
Burgers and fries but first we’ll pray so we don’t go to hell
You find the rejection you fear of course, as that is why you always hid to begin with. The stereotypes in these verses, the 401K, the white picket fence, retiring to Florida. All these things and the other are to show that this is what the world expects of you. This is how I am, you’re the same right? You’re human because you want to be made from a cookie cutter mold and be just like the rest of us?
What the fuck is hell bitch?
(coughs) Could you watch the language?
Look I just need a cold beer and some kinda sandwich
Don’t you come closer or I’ll shoot!
You don’t have the grapes
Still took a shot, nice miss, I disapparate
You’re asking because you don’t understand. As a result, you are attacked, rejected, your not the same. Ignore it, don’t let it weigh you down, continue to be you, just do it elsewhere and don’t let people like this bring you down. If you do, they win. Don’t judge, don’t sink to their level, shrug it off and move on.
What? Your dinner’s getting cold.
I just saw an alien.
I just saw an alien!
Are you drunk again?
(stutters) Dammit woman! Just get me the telephone!
911, what’s your emergency?
Hello?! There’s aliens!
Excuse me, sir?
I said there’s goddamn aliens!
Sir, sir, please calm down.
Calm down? Don’t tell me to calm down! I was outside and this
martian came and started cussing at me and I tried to shoot, and he
disappeared! Call the police! No, call the army!!
The overreactions of people because they find you different. That need to call upon others like themselves or that pretend to be like them. To group up so that they may combine forces and get rid of you. So that they may feel better about themselves and that there is only their one answer.
That is the Recap for this song by Recap! Next time I will be doing the second song on the album Starship!
Until then, remember. Be Who and what you want to be, for yourself. Don’t do it for others and instead, take a chance. Live the life you want, treat others how you want to be treated, and you may find happiness brothers and sisters.
If you follow all of my work rather than just the title pieces that interest you, you have seen the work I have been doing with Matthew Grabysoch and Cynthea Masson. Matthew and I are doing a chapter by chapter review of Cynthea Masson’s book “The Alchemists’ Council”.
This project gave me an idea for another of my own. Why not do commentary pieces on my interpretation of the lyrics for the songs from Recap’s album “Neon Milk“?
One of my favorite things about the album was that the lyrics have some deep meaning. I am sure I will interpret some things differently than they meant them to be, but that is just part of the beauty of language.
A few important notes:
– I am not doing these on a set schedule. I try to stay fluid for creativity reasons, so will do these as inspired.
– Typically I will do one song per piece, but may do up to three per article.
– The Recap Band approves this project 🙂
– Watch for the first one to come in the near future!
For you, Recap fans that think this will be a cool segment do me a favor and take a moment to check out the other project that helped generate the base concept for me!
Be sure to check out their books also, here’s some Amazon links!
I’ve had some horrible illness for the last week so I apologize for not haveing many of these out. On the other hand, while there have been some things I would have spotlighted this last week, I would have been stretching. Things catching my eye either from an oddity standpoint or from a pricing standpoint hasn’t been that lucrative this week.
Whether you’re looking for a full U9 or just need the cards or the map, this can’t hurt for a baker dozen greenbacks with free shipping.
I did an article, well a few of theme here and there, on the new Countach album.
In one of them I had provided some handy links for displaying yours and showed you what I was ordering. I thought I would do a follow-up and show you how that worked out. Here it from a distance since I am showing the display not the actual piece.
If you are wondering, yes, it is on the cieling!
This was the display piece I used for it. Very simple and inexpanisive but also nothing fancy.
A trio of my favorite guys are back putting out another album for me to be able to add to my A+ music list! You can bet this is something I am kickstarting before the weekend is over, just need to decide what I can’t afford and live with at the same time.